Sunday, September 20, 2009

Love Grows!!

It has been 16 weeks since becoming a mommy to my most adorable and precious son Isaac. He is seriously a little angel, very easy to take care of, hardly ever fusses and now sleeps around 11 hours at night. My life before Isaac is a total blur. Simon and I both feel like he's been with us our entire lives. We forget what its like before he came along. When he cries, I worry. When he's hurt, I cry. When he had baby acne and eczema all over his face and neck, I totally wish I could get it in place of him (I'm vain and wouldn't do this for anyone else). I would give up my life any time for this little fella that has only been in my life for 16 weeks.

Has it always been that way? I can't say it has. Every mom that I've talked to told me about the intense feeling of love they had towards their baby the second they met them, "its a feeling that cannot be described to anyone and only moms experience". They tell me that you would give up your life for them right there and then. I was so excited to experience that kind of intensity, but when Isaac came out on May 30th, 2009 at 8:27pm, it was rather anticlimactic. Maybe because he came out so fast, but my feelings towards him did not change from when he was still in my belly. Don't get me wrong, it was amazing and all to see this 6 Ib 14 oz human come out of my body, but that initial love that every mom talks about was certainly not there. I felt more protective over him than anything else. I was a little disappointed and felt bad for Isaac. What kind of mother am I? But as each day passes by, I fell in love with him more and more. That initial feeling of protectiveness blossomed into an intense feeling of love. I think of him every second and even misses him when he falls asleep at night. I am treasuring every precious moment now because before I realize it, he will be a teenager who doesn't want to have anything to do with me. :)


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